As common as it is (ugh, IKR)… describe yourself.

Hmm… When I laugh, I laugh so hard. I laugh at the most trivial things, like when watching a very funny movie, show or even animes. I love music, indie music particularly, but also New Wave and others. I love movies and literature and everything about arts though I don’t know much and sometimes I think I’m either a poser or a social climber—or both. Haha! But they are my refuge. My real friends know how I could be a badass, some would misunderstand me but truth is, I could be very very sensitive that I get hurt too much. I’m trying to change, but I want to keep my principles. When someone does you wrong, he/she should know it and admit it and say sorry. 

People like me easily. It’s easy for me to be friends with anyone, but I’m afraid when I get too close to someone I’d start getting hurt again—-at the most trivial things like feeling you’re not as important to them as their other friends. It’s funny I’m laughing right now, but that’s how it is. Even my parents can’t handle me. I used to think I was badly raised. At least I’m as close as ever to my mom now. Meanwhile, my dad, who used to be my darling dad, right now I don’t talk to him that much, as in, you know, I don’t talk to him as my dad. I haven’t talked to him like that for more than two years now. I told you I have principles. But sometimes like when I had a misunderstanding with a friend, even when it’s just a trivial reason, at that moment it happened it wasn’t. Months later you’d think it was ridiculous, but you’ve been used to not talking to the person. It’s crazy.

I fall in love easily, I once thought I could make someone fall for me. Haha! (And I did, actually! Haha.) But I don’t know. Lately I’ve become open-minded. I could go on living without a husband. I don’t think I could ever handle being pregnant and giving birth and being a mother. I don’t want to be cheated on by any man. I don’t have any plan in life so I’ve been thinking maybe I’d rather die young. Haha I’m kidding.

I used to be an achiever as a child. Then I went into this good university where almost everyone else is intelligent, and then I developed inferiority complex. The shaking of my hands, primarily due to a thyroid sickness, got worse, and my stage fright got worse. It’s funny ‘cause my parents have large expectations and large faith in me they want me to be a lawyer. When I think about it I get sick. Haha. 

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One word to describe me based on this post: MUSHY

ewwww I’m sorry!!!!