do you

remember you

were drunk last night, this morning

your hands on hers

you were trying to teach her how to drive

but you were on a highway

and you were drunk

she drank a little, too

and you were almost around the city

you were trying to get some coffee

you wanted to go somewhere far but she said no

they were looking for her

you said you could support her

you’re kidding, she tells herself

you love your life you don’t need anything now

not a wife not a child not even her

you want so many things so you stopped and had something you haven’t tried before

while she watched you eating

you were hungry and tired

she was sleepy so you sent her home

going a little too far just to take a U-turn

she asked why you said something she said what

but you wouldn’t tell her

in the next eight hours, even after sleeping, she would remember and still wonder what it was

women always say the weird things that men wish they could understand

but you were different

you say things she couldn’t, but wanted to, understand 

you said it was safe, just one kiss, you were gay

she said no you can’t because you’re not

and in the next eight days she would still wonder what would happen if she took the chance 

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